I decided to start a routine that keeps the kids on a schedule for school, but also FORCES me to get out of the house and into environments that will test my anxiety. I have discovered this week that I definitely need to go back and talk to my psychiatrist. While I have been photographing my children participating in summer meals and the summer reading program, I have been battling anxiety attacks. My heart races, my head pounds, and by mid-afternoon, I'm wiped. I have very little patience with my children when we are out and about, so I know my medications will need to be adjusted. However, that is why I am doing this schedule. I can't determine what works for me if I don't subject myself to the stresses.
Enter this weekend.
This weekend is going to be all for me and my blog. I have been working like a mad woman for 2 weeks so that I could take three WHOLE DAYS off and devote it to my business. Yup, THREE DAYS! I am so excited I can hardly think. Except, I also know that I am going to be stressing at the same time. Why? Well, because I am attending a conference. I am going to WordCamp KC on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I am attending the wrap-up party on Sunday, but I am not doing the other two.
I will be posting blogs as I can in the evening, BUT I am also doing the Biannual Blogathon!
What I am not excited about is the anxiety I know I will feel while I am doing all of this. I ask for patience as I battle with my mental health and create a blog. My dream is to be a front-end developer and social media marketer who can help with websites & mobile apps for bloggers/entrepreneurs. I haven't really said it out loud ... my dreams. I am going to have to change that because saying them makes me all sorts of anxious. Almost like I feel like I'm not capable of doing it.
What are things you do to help keep your anxiety at bay while you pursue your dreams? Have you ever struggled with dreaming something huge, but feeling that your mental health is holding you back? How do you deal with it? Let me know in the comments below!
Hello, I know how you feel! I have bad anxiety too. I'd much rather just stay home all the time. But I force myself to go places. I take meds for depression, but not anxiety. It sounds like you have great things going on though with your blog. I'm also in the blogathon. There's a lot to do there. lol But we just do what we can. This is a great post, I'll be sharing it.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find the weekend a little easier than you think it might be. Anxiety has got to be such an overwhelming thing to deal with. You can do it!
ReplyDeleteI wish I could just say "you'll be fine" and mean it. However, I know how hard it is to battle anxiety and have big ambitions at the same time. So, I commend you on taking on these challenges head on knowing that you're dealing with anxiety at the same time. I do have faith that you'll be okay and that you'll excel far beyond your imagination. However, in the same token I know you're going to have to dig in deep and find your inner strength that you clearly possess to have four children and this blog! The good news is you're in this event with others! IF you need extra encouragement or a shoulder to vent on feel free to reach out.
ReplyDeleteThis weekend did go a lot better than I expected. I stayed on the outskirts so that I felt like I could slip out if I needed to. Thankfully, I was able to really dive into the content being presented and forget about everything around me.
ReplyDeleteThanks!
ReplyDelete