Baby steps to a better future

Well, I am not completely back into the swing of writing every day, but I am taking baby steps. Baby steps to a better blog is right in lines with my baby steps to a better future on the whole. This week was the first week that I didn't take meal breaks with no food. I made my lunches and then took them to work to eat while on the clock. I am absolutely in love with the blog, Cotter Crunch.

Life as I know it

Well, I see it's been about a year since I have written ... this is my new life. Life as I know it has changed. I am a single mother of a teenager that battles a lot of HARD emotional disorders and it leaves me questioning my choices each and every day. I have been working around the clock and it's affecting my ability to be a good mom, a good friend, and a good person to myself. I have lost who I once was. Now, I don't know whether that is bad or good, but I do know that there are things that have GOT to change.

Getting the Bug Back!!

Many have wondered whether I dropped off the face of the writer's planet ... and I kinda did. I lost my drive to write when my grandmother passed in 2016. I have been trying so very hard to get it back, but most of me died the day she passed. It took me a long time to process all the loss in my life. My family and I aren't close ... there is no secret there. I try to keep from airing most of my differences, but I am finally beginning to feel myself again. I have done major changes in my diet, as well as completely restructuring my circles.

Everyday I feel just a little more normal ... whatever normal is. I am starting to miss school again ... starting to miss writing ... starting to miss blogging  ... all the things that used to be "me" ...

Taking my life back

Over the last few weeks, I have been battling horrifically bad depression ... complete with suicidal thoughts. I have not been eating much, hardly sleeping, and sending my energy to a very very sick friend. With him on the mend, I am in the process of taking my life back ... along with the assistance from a few friends. I decided that it was time to take to my blog because it holds me accountable.

From the Start

I am 38 years old and know that my health is not in the best. I smoke, I drink, and I don't eat that great. My cholesterol levels are fine, but my white blood cell counts are high and I battle many acronym diagnoses. For you to be able to follow my journey, I feel you should know a little insight on me.